Hoseok's not sure what answer he was expecting but the one Jungkook gives is easy enough to understand. He knows intimately, painfully what telling someone your feelings can do, what rejection feels like between people who are already closer than friends, the distance it puts between people.
And he knows it could be worse, that he's lucky Jin still treats him like a friend, like a cherished little brother. But there's a level of closeness that's gone now, a guardedness that comes from Jin trying to protect from further hurting his feelings, as unintentional as it all was and is.
He never planned to tell Jin because he'd expected this outcome. It was bad judgement on his part, so many poor choices, and as much as he wishes he could take it back, what's done is done. Which is why he will never, ever tell Yoongi. There's already a distance between them because of what happened before Yoongi and Jungkook got together, and losing Yoongi's friendship entirely would absolutely gut him.
He tries to imagine how he would handle it if someone confessed to him. The way Jungkook's talking he finds it hard to believe this person he's talking about is outside their group of friends. The only person Hoseok spends any time with aside from them is Eunsoo, but he doesn't think Jungkook has ever spoken to her outside of his visits to the studio. They're certainly not close enough for her to confess her feelings to him, or at least he doesn't think so.
The thing is, all of his friends are dating each other. So whoever it is, their feelings have probably changed by now. And, even if they haven't, the last thing Hoseok is ever going to do is endanger his friends' happiness, especially for selfish reasons. He desperately wants to know who this person is, but Jungkook said he can't tell him, and pressing for details wouldn't be fair to him.
"When..." he starts, then he has to stop and swallow, because his voice is shaking again. "When I confessed to Jin-hyung, Yoongi told me I was brave for doing it," he says. "I didn't feel brave, but I think that you were. Telling Yoongi, that was so brave, Kookie. And I'm so glad you did. Because he's so happy with you. So, so happy."
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And he knows it could be worse, that he's lucky Jin still treats him like a friend, like a cherished little brother. But there's a level of closeness that's gone now, a guardedness that comes from Jin trying to protect from further hurting his feelings, as unintentional as it all was and is.
He never planned to tell Jin because he'd expected this outcome. It was bad judgement on his part, so many poor choices, and as much as he wishes he could take it back, what's done is done. Which is why he will never, ever tell Yoongi. There's already a distance between them because of what happened before Yoongi and Jungkook got together, and losing Yoongi's friendship entirely would absolutely gut him.
He tries to imagine how he would handle it if someone confessed to him. The way Jungkook's talking he finds it hard to believe this person he's talking about is outside their group of friends. The only person Hoseok spends any time with aside from them is Eunsoo, but he doesn't think Jungkook has ever spoken to her outside of his visits to the studio. They're certainly not close enough for her to confess her feelings to him, or at least he doesn't think so.
The thing is, all of his friends are dating each other. So whoever it is, their feelings have probably changed by now. And, even if they haven't, the last thing Hoseok is ever going to do is endanger his friends' happiness, especially for selfish reasons. He desperately wants to know who this person is, but Jungkook said he can't tell him, and pressing for details wouldn't be fair to him.
"When..." he starts, then he has to stop and swallow, because his voice is shaking again. "When I confessed to Jin-hyung, Yoongi told me I was brave for doing it," he says. "I didn't feel brave, but I think that you were. Telling Yoongi, that was so brave, Kookie. And I'm so glad you did. Because he's so happy with you. So, so happy."