Jungkook doesn't answer immediately. Sometimes words take longer, and sometimes Jungkook thinks that there's a value in not blurting out the first thing he thinks of — to take the time to sit back and assess the full picture. The good thing is that he's pretty sure Hoseok understands his explanation, though Jungkook heart aches at the knowledge of what's given Hoseok that insight. That Hoseok has loved, has confessed, without the feelings being returned in kind.
If he tries to imagine what his world would be like now were Yoongi to have refused Jungkook's affections, Jungkook thinks that he probably would have retreated to some degree from the group. That for all the fears he had about being pushed away, what might be the most damning is never knowing if his simple presence was making others uncomfortable. Making the one he loves uncomfortable.
How does one get past that?
How does one turn those emotions off?
Perhaps the only solution is to find a new love, but how long will it take for old wounds to heal enough for Hoseok to even take that chance?
He glances briefly down at his lap, pulls his hands back to play briefly with the hem of his shirt. "Hyung, if my telling Yoongi was brave, then your confession to Jin hyung was just as brave," Jungkook points out, glancing up, his expression earnest. "It's not easy, hyung. It's not easy to be a boy who loves another boy. It's not easy to confess your love when you feel like it might not be returned. When you're almost sure it won't be."
Tilting his head, Jungkook leans forward just a touch, wanting to make sure his words come across. "I know the future's scary, I know that it might be easier to give up hope. But I don't think you should, hyung. Let yourself be sad when you feel sad, but... there will be better days," Jungkook says softly.
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If he tries to imagine what his world would be like now were Yoongi to have refused Jungkook's affections, Jungkook thinks that he probably would have retreated to some degree from the group. That for all the fears he had about being pushed away, what might be the most damning is never knowing if his simple presence was making others uncomfortable. Making the one he loves uncomfortable.
How does one get past that?
How does one turn those emotions off?
Perhaps the only solution is to find a new love, but how long will it take for old wounds to heal enough for Hoseok to even take that chance?
He glances briefly down at his lap, pulls his hands back to play briefly with the hem of his shirt. "Hyung, if my telling Yoongi was brave, then your confession to Jin hyung was just as brave," Jungkook points out, glancing up, his expression earnest. "It's not easy, hyung. It's not easy to be a boy who loves another boy. It's not easy to confess your love when you feel like it might not be returned. When you're almost sure it won't be."
Tilting his head, Jungkook leans forward just a touch, wanting to make sure his words come across. "I know the future's scary, I know that it might be easier to give up hope. But I don't think you should, hyung. Let yourself be sad when you feel sad, but... there will be better days," Jungkook says softly.