Fear settles under Yoongi's skin, tight and prickling, a familiar old friend. Except right now, Yoongi thinks, he has every reason to be afraid. This isn't some baseless, nameless fear. This is real and solid, and he doesn't think he's blowing it out of proportion. Jungkook's dad finding out is dangerous.
"He could kill you," he says tightly, an unspoken plea in his voice, in his eyes. "That's the worst that could happen." Even saying it leaves him terrified, slightly aghast he even put it into words. It seems like tempting fate to say it aloud, but he can't just pretend it's not true. If the man could beat Jungkook for getting home late, Yoongi doesn't doubt he'll go further still if he finds out Jungkook is queer. That he's dating Yoongi. It happens all the time. Boys like them get beaten, get killed. Getting turned out of the house to fend for themselves seems like the best outcome he can think of. It's the one he imagines for himself, not because he feels particularly optimistic, but just because he knows his father. He might lift a hand to him, but he won't do much. Whatever happens, Yoongi knows he can survive it. He's not sure Jungkook can say the same.
Running his fingers through Jungkook's hair, he bites his tongue, lets the small pain of it ground him. "Please be careful. Please." He doesn't want to deny their love either, but he can't keep himself from thinking I'm not worth dying for. If they have to keep silent to survive the next two years, he'd rather be disavowed than risk any harm coming to Jungkook.
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"He could kill you," he says tightly, an unspoken plea in his voice, in his eyes. "That's the worst that could happen." Even saying it leaves him terrified, slightly aghast he even put it into words. It seems like tempting fate to say it aloud, but he can't just pretend it's not true. If the man could beat Jungkook for getting home late, Yoongi doesn't doubt he'll go further still if he finds out Jungkook is queer. That he's dating Yoongi. It happens all the time. Boys like them get beaten, get killed. Getting turned out of the house to fend for themselves seems like the best outcome he can think of. It's the one he imagines for himself, not because he feels particularly optimistic, but just because he knows his father. He might lift a hand to him, but he won't do much. Whatever happens, Yoongi knows he can survive it. He's not sure Jungkook can say the same.
Running his fingers through Jungkook's hair, he bites his tongue, lets the small pain of it ground him. "Please be careful. Please." He doesn't want to deny their love either, but he can't keep himself from thinking I'm not worth dying for. If they have to keep silent to survive the next two years, he'd rather be disavowed than risk any harm coming to Jungkook.