Jungkook's lips part when Yoongi comes back with his final assessment, given after the care of a minute or so, countless emotions passing over Yoongi's expression. It's how Jungkook knows that the statement isn't one that Yoongi's simply throwing around for ease not that Yoongi ever takes anything about his mother lightly and Jungkook finds his face flooding over with warmth at the thought. He really, really wants to be loved by Yoongi's mother. Almost as much as he craves love from his own parents.
To break his awkward silence, Jungkook grabs another piece of mandu and holds it out for Yoongi, blinking against the heat in his eyes. He swallows thickly seconds later, turning back to the grave marker, and bowing fully in front of it. Lets his forehead touch the still damp surface of stone.
"Dad... it's been hard for me sometimes. There are days when it's so hard to see ahead beyond the next few hours, when everything feels so heavy and like I'll never be like I'll never know what it's like to breathe without that weight on my chest. But I keep going because I know mom needs me, and because I think, it's the least I could do to honor your name," Jungkook says, his words slightly muffled by the proximity to the grass. "I don't always know if I deserve it. But it's a good name, right? Jeon Jungkook... ah, what am I saying? It's just. It's not that hard anymore, dad. When I'm with Yoongi, everything feels it feels right. So, watch over him too, okay? I'm sorry for being the son who always comes here asking you for things. I promise I'll try even harder, I'll get better grades and I'll go to university and make you proud. But you can be happy for me now. Because life is... it's really good these days."
Jungkook sits up, slightly bleary-eyed as he licks his lower lip. "I'm going to go meet Yoongi's mom. You should you should hang out with her sometime. I think she's pretty great."
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To break his awkward silence, Jungkook grabs another piece of mandu and holds it out for Yoongi, blinking against the heat in his eyes. He swallows thickly seconds later, turning back to the grave marker, and bowing fully in front of it. Lets his forehead touch the still damp surface of stone.
"Dad... it's been hard for me sometimes. There are days when it's so hard to see ahead beyond the next few hours, when everything feels so heavy and like I'll never be like I'll never know what it's like to breathe without that weight on my chest. But I keep going because I know mom needs me, and because I think, it's the least I could do to honor your name," Jungkook says, his words slightly muffled by the proximity to the grass. "I don't always know if I deserve it. But it's a good name, right? Jeon Jungkook... ah, what am I saying? It's just. It's not that hard anymore, dad. When I'm with Yoongi, everything feels it feels right. So, watch over him too, okay? I'm sorry for being the son who always comes here asking you for things. I promise I'll try even harder, I'll get better grades and I'll go to university and make you proud. But you can be happy for me now. Because life is... it's really good these days."
Jungkook sits up, slightly bleary-eyed as he licks his lower lip. "I'm going to go meet Yoongi's mom. You should you should hang out with her sometime. I think she's pretty great."