Even if they're only discussing the thought for now, something about Yoongi's interest still makes Jungkook preen with pride. There are very few times when Jungkook's relished being in control. Even on the occasions when he feels like he longs for change, when he wishes he could sway the story in one direction or another, Jungkook finds that he lacks the confidence for the follow-through. If anything, the fact that life has jerked him in one direction or the other at its whim has made Jungkook less sure of being able to find his own way. In the relentless current of the river, he lets himself go limp to spare himself the shock of being thrown in all directions.

But with Yoongi, Jungkook finds himself wanting to try. Wanting to be that steady presence for Yoongi in the same way that he's been so for Jungkook. Maybe fucking should be the least of his concerns in that regard, but somehow it matters in ways that Jungkook can't express. There's nowhere in the world where he's quite as vulnerable than when he lies with Yoongi like this, baring his heart, sharing his soul. In that regard, being able to explore intimacy from the other side feels important.

"Good," he whispers, slipping a finger between Yoongi's cheeks, watching intently as he brushes against the rim. He's not ready for that step yet, but it doesn't hurt to imagine it. "'Cause I wanna feel what it's like to be in you. Bury myself so deep."