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The world feels like it's been a little dimmer since Monday. Generally, Jungkook isn't the type to let himself be too affected by his environment — he'd sooner be the one assessing it from a distance, rather than get caught up in all of its complexity — but ever since becoming friends with his hyungs, more and more of their moods start to siphon in. He's aware, albeit distantly, when they're sad. Feels their anger and frustration as if they were his own. There are times when it gets to be too much, and Jungkook will always take the time to step away, make sure that he can breathe and feel the ground beneath his feet. But there are times when, no matter how much the earth shifts, he feels like he has to watch.

He's not sure why he always feels like he's holding his breath, waiting for the dissolution.

Yesterday went better than expected, Jungkook thinks. To see Jimin's smile as they sat on the train, taking it to the edge of the country, where they could watch the open sea and the planes taking off into the sky. Even if Jungkook knows that he wasn't able to erase all of the shadows from Jimin's mind, there are times when lifting the burden feels like enough of a success. As long as they can get to the next day, and the next still, there will come a time when all of them will be strong enough to shrug everything off, should they need. Jungkook has to believe that.

He knows that there's a bit of a risk in being out so late three nights now in a row, and he's done his best to keep a close eye on his father whenever at home, assessing his moods. This week seems to be a peaceful one, and not knowing when that grace will end, Jungkook takes advantage of it at once. He's long since learned that things like this can be unpredictable, and the only way to ensure happiness is to grasp at it whenever it's within reach.

And he is happy, enjoying the quiet companionship in Yoongi's room, hours of piano practice behind them now. They're mostly working on homework, which isn't as hard to focus on now than it was a week ago.

As being the key word.

Jungkook figures that he's finished enough for the night — he might regret later not working ahead, but for now, everything he needs to present to his teacher the next day is more or less done, and so he slides the notebook away and drops his pen with a flourish. A few steps easily carry him to the bed, and he sits down on the edge of the mattress, holding his arms out in Yoongi's direction.

"I finished, and I'd like to claim my reward," he declares softly, tilting his head with a smile.

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That's all Yoongi wants to do, stay by Jungkook's side. When he looks to his future now, it's the one thing that seems clear. He still hasn't figured out what studies or career he'll pursue after high school or what the rest of his future looks like, but it has Jungkook in it, alongside him as he figures out everything else, and that's enough to make it seem brighter than it ever did before. They'll have each other. That can get them through anything.

He laughs quietly. "Probably," he agrees. As much as he hates being separated, he also wants to get clean and under the covers, pleasantly tired out and ready to cuddle up for sleep. "You can make me smell like sex again later. Do you want to go first?" It would be nice just to shower together, too, though he's not sure he could withstand the temptation right now to turn that into something more than just getting clean, no matter if he's getting sleepy.

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Jungkook groans when Yoongi agrees to the request, even though it was his suggestion to begin with. There's knowing that something is good in theory, but acting on it is another matter entirely. Jungkook snickers as he pushes himself onto an elbow, laughing at the way his arm trembles as it braces his weight.

"Wow, I didn't think being tied up would use so much muscle strength," Jungkook murmurs, sweeping by Yoongi's cheek with a peck before sitting up in full, grimacing at the way his skin sticks. "And yeah, I can go first. I'll hold you to that promise, though. If you sleep in a lot again, you might wake up to quite the surprise."

Jungkook grins, reaching for his shirt and boxers, slipping them quickly on and hesitating before foregoing the jeans. "I'm borrowing these again, he declares as he reaches for Yoongi's dresser, easily finding a set of pajamas. "Mine are in my backpack, if you'd like."

He scurries out before Yoongi has the time to fully respond.

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"How is that a threat?" Yoongi calls after him, but Jungkook has already scurried off. He's tempted to stay where he is for a few more minutes, but that's the very reason he won't allow himself to do so. If he stays put, he's going to fall asleep before Jungkook comes back.

So he pushes himself slowly up, groaning, to find first his own clothing, which he tosses onto the bed, and then Jungkook's backpack. It doesn't take much digging to find the promised pajamas, and he smiles to himself, holding them close so he can bury his face against the fabric, breathing in the scent of Jungkook. Part of him doesn't even want to wear them, wants to have something where the smell lingers, untouched. But then, he likes the idea, too, of something that ends up smelling like both of them.

Putting on his clothes from earlier for now, he sits back down on the bed, just starting to doze when Jungkook returns. Yoongi gets up again at the sound of his return, gathering the pajamas up, and smiles, fond, at the sight of him. "I like you in my clothes," he says, starting for the door. "It's nice." He's not sure why it is, exactly, something about the intimacy of shared things, but he knows he likes it.

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Even though Jungkook's already out the door, he hears every word of Yoongi's reaction, which is enough to put him in a good mood all the way through his shower. He wonders, sometimes, if he comes off as too eager — throwing out ideas left and right. Wonders if it gives the impression that he's been thinking about intimacy for longer than he has, even though Jungkook doesn't think that Yoongi would judge him for it either way.

He keeps the water relatively lukewarm for the shower, not wanting to take up all of the hot water tank before Yoongi gets a chance to even start, closing his eyes for several seconds and simply standing under the stream. It's soothing, having the water sluice over his skin with his arms heavy at his sides, and only reluctantly does Jungkook finally open his eyes to make sure he scrubs a little more around his abdomen, around his mouth and chin, making sure that he's clean enough for bed.

Stepping into the hallway always makes him nervous; Jungkook never knows whether or not Yoongi's father is fully aware of his presence. Most of the time, it's never an issue. Tonight thankfully continues the trend, and all nerves fade away once Jungkook's back in Yoongi's room and under the approving gaze of his boyfriend.

"I'd wear your clothes every day if I had access to your closet," Jungkook points out, closing the distance and gently reaching for Yoongi's chin, tilting it up for a brief kiss. "Think anyone else would notice?"

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Yoongi hums approvingly at the kiss, one hand cradling Jungkook's pajamas to his chest, the other reaching to curl in his shirt. He doesn't intend to linger long, but it's instinctive, a small way of keeping him close, though it's not like there's any need. "Maybe," he says. "Maybe I want them to." Most of their classmates would miss it, probably, but some of them might notice, and Yoongi likes the idea of it. Likes the thought that people might wonder about them or even guess. In theory, it's exciting; he wants the world to know. In practice, he knows, it might scare the shit out of him. But then what would anyone do? All they could do is make guesses.

Their friends would probably notice, but that's not a concern. It's not like they don't already have some idea of what the two of them are getting up to. They'll tease either way, and Yoongi kind of likes the teasing. It's all affectionate anyway, and there's an implicit sense of acceptance in it that makes him feel safe.

"You can if you want," he adds. "I don't mind."

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Warmth floods over Jungkook's cheeks when Yoongi mentions wanting their classmates to know, wanting someone to realize if Jungkook dons Yoongi's clothes instead of his own. The thought is appealing for many of the same reasons why Jungkook enjoys having his skin marked by Yoongi, likes having something physical to broadcast their relationship. Unthinkingly, he leans in for another kiss, whining softly into the touch and bumping the tip of his nose against Yoongi's cheek.

"Maybe I want that, too," he murmurs when he pulls back, gaze scanning quickly over Yoongi's features and the smile that blooms over his face. Every time Yoongi smiles, it feels like a victory, causes Jungkook's stomach to flip pleasantly. A couple of seconds later, his own grin widens, and Jungkook takes a couple of steps in the direction of Yoongi's closet, stopped only by the hand that's still clinging to his shirt.

"I'm going to do it. I'll borrow a couple of things every time I come over, bring them back the next time."

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"If you remember to," Yoongi says wryly, following after him just enough to lean in and kiss Jungkook's cheek before he lets go. He can't even pretend he'd actually care if Jungkook just took off with some of his stuff and never brought it back. It would be worth it just to see him in them. Sharing them, though, is even better. Eventually the things Jungkook brings back will smell of him, will carry the memory of having watched Jungkook walk around in them and laugh in them. Yoongi longs for a day when there isn't a single thing he owns that isn't touched by some memory of Jungkook.

"Take what you like. I'll be right back." He'd like to make some parting remark that leaves Jungkook just as intrigued and faintly aroused as he was, but he's got nothing so he just smiles and hurries off.

As much as he hates being away from Jungkook, it's nice just to get into the shower and let the water wash over him, scrubbing away all trace of sweat and semen. If anything, after a couple of minutes, it's hard to resist the urge to linger, almost to fall asleep beneath the spray, pleasantly exhausted. Still, it doesn't take too long before he's drying off and slipping into his boyfriend's pajamas to pad back down the hall to his room.

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Jungkook purses his lips at the slight tease from Yoongi, wondering if he should take that as implicit permission to keep some clothes for good, if he really likes them. Now that the suggestion's been made, Jungkook's tempted — he opens Yoongi's closet, briefly browsing around, a small smile at his face over how many items of clothing he easily recognizes. There are some pieces that he's never seen Yoongi wear, but Jungkook decides to avoid those for now. Selfishly, he wants to steal the articles Yoongi likes best.

And if in the process, he encourages Yoongi to diversify his wardrobe, then all the better. Jungkook can't imagine disliking the way anything looks on Yoongi.

After peeling a couple of coats and shirts away and neatly folding them by his backpack, Jungkook quickly retreats under the covers, trying to recover what warmth he's lost. Even though they didn't linger on the bed for too long, there's still the faint smell of sex on the sheets, and Jungkook smiles as he buries his face into a pillow, pleased with the evidence of them.

By the time Yoongi returns, Jungkook's always dozed off, one pillow tucked away in his arms in lieu of Yoongi.

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Closing the door quietly behind him, Yoongi smiles fondly as he watches Jungkook, already apparently asleep. He looks so sweet like this, so peaceful, and Yoongi takes extra care to move as soundlessly as he can to avoid disturbing him. Turning off the lamp on his desk, he heads back over to the bed, slipping carefully beneath the covers.

As his eyes adjust to the darkness, he rests with his head on the pillow, inhaling deeply to take in the scent of them as he watches Jungkook. The downside of his having drifted off first is that there won't be any spooning tonight, but Jungkook looks so cozy, he can't be that disappointed. It's enough just to have him here, to hear the soft rise and fall of his breathing and see how comfortable he looks here in Yoongi's bed. It just feels right. Tired out as he is, Yoongi suspects he'll have no trouble falling asleep tonight even without arms around him.

Leaning over, he presses a soft kiss to Jungkook's forehead before he settles back against his pillow to sleep.