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There are times, Jungkook thinks, when unexpected changes in plan work out for the best. Giving up on the idea of Busan during winter break wasn't the easiest choice at the time — Jungkook had expected it to be the highlight of their winter, and giving into the pressure of Yeongwook's blackmailing hurt on multiple levels. But distance seemed safest. Planning, biding their time, having Jungkook carefully siphon a portion of his allowance over to Yoongi for safekeeping, every passing day made the trip feel more viable again, until the two of them suddenly realized that Yoongi's birthday would be an easy occasion to leave for, and that was that.

They've picked up memories along the way. The first night Jungkook had Yoongi stay over. The first dinner together with his mother, with her offering countless thanks for helping her youngest with his studies. A trip out to a nameless beach, all seven of them together, huddled and bracing against the last of the winter winds.

Getting to March isn't as difficult as Jungkook expected it to be, and now that they're here, the wait has made everything all the sweeter.

He takes countless pictures with his camera — of their seats together on the train, of the little box meals they buy from the lady with the cart. Of the ramyeon they buy an hour later, when it's clear that the box meals are more packaging than substance.

Of Yoongi, staring out the window of the train car, a soft smile on his face.

At first, Jungkook struggled with the idea of spending much of Yoongi's birthday on the train, but the trip to Busan takes several hours at best, which would have required missing class on Friday. Seeing Yoongi's peaceful expression on the train helps to set a little of that regret to rest, as does the stifled laughter they share as they stumble down the hall to their room in the hotel.

"Hotel Elysee," Jungkook says with a flourish as he waits for Yoongi to swipe their room key. "Is that, like, French?"
likedriedflowerpetals: [music] (neutral, positive) he's theeere the phantom of the kpopppppp (our love is sweeter than strings)

[personal profile] likedriedflowerpetals 2019-07-23 08:39 am (UTC)(link)
Yoongi glances over, surprised and shy and pleased all at once. He's never going to get over this, not ever, he's sure of it. Nothing could dim the sweet, gentle pleasure of loving this much and being loved so much in return. To be compared to the finest of art and know it might actually be true β€” that if anything could be better, it's the real thing, and that, if anything could bring his feelings so visibly to his face, it's Jungkook.

"Like I said," he says. "Art's at its best when it comes closest to real life. Or furthest, sometimes." There are pieces so beautiful, they transport him to a more peaceful frame of mind, elevate him above the day to day, and that's a gift as powerful and necessary as the ability to bring to life things more grounded in reality. He hardly dares compare himself to such things, but if Jungkook does, well, it's enough to know that. "And the way I love you..." He holds Jungkook's gaze a moment, pulling it away to make sure he doesn't walk into anything. "Nothing more real than that."
likedriedflowerpetals: [jungkook] (positive) soft boy :( (I'd run awayβ€š I'd run away with you)

[personal profile] likedriedflowerpetals 2019-07-24 09:36 am (UTC)(link)
"Yah," Yoongi exclaims, amused and faintly embarrassed. "I thought I was crazy." Maybe, on some level, that's part of what drew him to Jungkook β€” all the little touches and glances he can look back at now and know were out of love, all the things that made him feel so special with the younger boy. And it's true that he still does make Yoongi feel special, but he knows now there's much more to it. This is love, as pure and true as it gets.

"And you don't need to do anything," he adds, shrugging. "You're not average to me." Practically speaking, sure, Jungkook doesn't have the best grades and he's not a genius at any one particular thing. So what? He's Jungkook, and that's exactly who Yoongi loves, no matter what he does or doesn't do. If Yoongi had wanted someone more academically inclined, he'd be looking elsewhere. What he wants is this boy who looks at him like he's moonlight β€” his boy who's so passionate and energetic and charming, no one could help but love him.
likedriedflowerpetals: (positive) smug af (I'm fineβ€š sorry)

[personal profile] likedriedflowerpetals 2019-07-25 09:53 am (UTC)(link)
"If you keep saying you're beneath me," Yoongi says, but he can't come up with an adequate punishment. He's terrible at actually holding anything against Jungkook anyway. Still, even when Jungkook is teasing β€” practically flirting β€” Yoongi doesn't like to hear it. It's not that he thinks Jungkook is quite like him, that he takes that kind of talk as utterly to heart as Yoongi does, but still, it implies insecurities without any reason. They're equals. Whether Yoongi's older or not or if he gets better grades, it doesn't make them any less on even footing.

Still, he laughs a moment later, rolling his eyes. "When did I have time to meet some beautiful, edgy girl?" he asks. "I was with you all the time. I thought you'd catch me. Who else could it be?" Maybe one of the other boys, admittedly. He spends almost as much time with the others as with Jungkook, if not quite as much. At least the suggestion it might be one of them made more sense than some mysterious girl.
likedriedflowerpetals: (neg, neutral) same (in a dream that can't come true)

[personal profile] likedriedflowerpetals 2019-07-25 09:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Yoongi bites back another laugh at the mental image of himself, lovesick over some girl he only ever saw in a coffee shop. It's not impossible. It does happen in dramas and he's sure it happens in real life sometimes, too. It just isn't very him. Still, he gets it. Anything seems more likely than requited love when you're in the midst of pining.

Which is exactly what they were doing, pining, like a pair of idiots. The whole thing is funny to him now, but at the time, it was utter agony.

"I wish we hadn't had to feel like that," he says, "but I'm glad that we're friends first." No matter how close he is to the others, he already thought of Jungkook as his best friend, and dating hasn't changed that. It's reassuring to know he loves someone who has his back and loves him just as he is. He pulls a face then. "Every now and then, I wondered if I had any hope at all. And then I felt bad for even thinking it. Like I was lying to you."
likedriedflowerpetals: (neutral) mrrp? (they make me run again)

[personal profile] likedriedflowerpetals 2019-07-26 08:53 am (UTC)(link)
Yoongi opens his mouth to protest, then shrugs. "I don't think so," he says. "As long as it wasn't a scheme to coerce someone into something they didn't actually want." Had it been him, of course, he would have said differently, that his attempts to stay friends were fake and cruel. But in general, that isn't what he thinks, and he can't imagine that he wouldn't have wanted to be Jungkook's friend even if their feelings were different. They just fit together too well not to be close.

"But that never would have happened," he adds after a moment. "I can't imagine not falling in love with you." In any universe, in any lifetime, he feels certain, they must be drawn to each other. Maybe it's dumb, some kind of adolescent wishful thinking. Maybe it's just because all of this is still so new and exciting. Still, he means it. How could he, in any time, under any circumstances, know this boy and not love him? It doesn't make sense.
likedriedflowerpetals: [jungkook, fire] (neg, positive, neutral?) he's got so many feelings, who can tell anymore (all the ashes in my wake)

[personal profile] likedriedflowerpetals 2019-07-27 12:18 am (UTC)(link)
Yoongi lifts Jungkook's hand, pressing a quick kiss to his knuckles, not caring for a moment who sees. It's so much easier just to let go in Busan, far from anyone who could get them in trouble. He always wants to do these things back home, and even if he's still cautious, it's nice to know he can give in once in a while without worrying too much.

"Even if we stayed friends," he says, "even if that's all that ever happened... I'd still just be happy to know you." It was torture to be so close to Jungkook and think he was so far away, but even that was better than not knowing him at all. It was the idea of losing that friendship that kept him quiet for so long. Even now, if anything happened between them, if this all fell apart somehow, he knows he'd still want to be friends, no matter how hard it would be. In all the ways they're the same and all the ways they're so different, Jungkook complements and completes him.
likedriedflowerpetals: (positive) sort of? smug (bultaoreune)

[personal profile] likedriedflowerpetals 2019-07-28 09:03 am (UTC)(link)
"And I'm the romantic one," Yoongi says wryly. Maybe he is, maybe he isn't. As far as he's concerned, he's only being honest. They wouldn't work as well as they do, he thinks, if they weren't also such good friends. In a way, that's one of the biggest reliefs in being together now β€” not having to hide something as big as his feelings from someone who matters to him so much. That Jungkook felt the same way isn't surprising, in retrospect, but it's nice to hear.

Because he could say the same about Jungkook and how much joy he's brought into Yoongi's life. It was his friendships that saved him, these last few years, when he was heartbroken and grieving, and Jungkook pulled him that much further out of the dark. It's always going to be strange to him, though, that that's the case β€” that Jungkook came into his life after his mother left it, that they'll never know each other.

"I could say the same about you. How much you brighten things. But I wouldn't want to be so cheesy."
likedriedflowerpetals: (positive) *_* (I bloom for you)

[personal profile] likedriedflowerpetals 2019-07-29 04:58 am (UTC)(link)
"It was cute," Yoongi protests, echoing his laugh. "I never felt so respected in my life." It seems like such a long time ago now, but he remembers it distantly, the obsequious uncertainty that surrounded Jungkook, the constant respect for his elders. It was a relief when he began to relax; nothing about the group of them ever seemed to lend itself to being taken very seriously anyway. Still, Yoongi recalls finding the novelty charming, perhaps because it never seemed false or forced. There's something so genuine about Jungkook. It's a trait Yoongi adores. He shields so much himself, it's a wonder to him to see how thoroughly Jungkook wears his heart on his sleeve.

Yoongi shakes his head at him, fond. "Besides, who am I to talk? I barely say two words if I can help it." It's different with the group of them. He can chatter on as readily as Hoseok or Seokjin if he chooses to. He just rarely feels comfortable enough or wanted enough to do so beyond the confines of their safe little circle.
likedriedflowerpetals: (positive) *_* (I bloom for you)

[personal profile] likedriedflowerpetals 2019-07-30 02:25 am (UTC)(link)
Yoongi thinks back to those early days, to what it was like when Jungkook was just some cute kid following them around. He's sure Taehyung and Jimin took to Jungkook faster than he did, though maybe that was an age thing. Still, he doesn't remember minding or being annoyed by it. If anything, it was flattering. Yoongi was more accustomed to people pitying him or even being afraid he might take a swing at them. The admiration Jungkook directed their way early on, sunny and ready to please, was so different. He never quite understood what they'd done to deserve that, just an ordinary bunch of hooligans, but it never bothered him.

In that way, he supposes, Jungkook has always made him feel lucky.

"Are they?" he asks, amused by the idea that there might be something special about what he has to say. But then, he finds so much of what Jungkook says important and charming out of nothing more than simple affection; maybe to Jungkook, what Yoongi has to say matters more for that same reason. "You know I never minded you hanging around, right?"
likedriedflowerpetals: (neg, neutral) ugh get it off me (we're both stubbornβ€š I know)

[personal profile] likedriedflowerpetals 2019-07-30 08:33 pm (UTC)(link)
It's an interesting way to put it and Yoongi turns the thought over in his mind. He doesn't think much of what he says really is all that important, but the idea that people might listen a little closer is an oddly comforting one. When, in his darker moments, he feels so much on the outside of things, it's nice to imagine his words, his thoughts, being so valued. It's nice to know that's true for Jungkook, at the least, and probably the others. As long as that's the case, he doesn't care so much about the rest of the world listening closely.

"Okay, maybe a little," he admits. "But not so much I wanted you to leave. I just..." He shrugs. "Need space." For all that he does better, sleeps better, with Jungkook in his bad, and as much as he clings to his hand now, luxuriating in the gentle touch, the fact remains that Yoongi still needs room to himself. Even if they're in the same room, he has to have some space to breathe or he grows brittle and agitated and snappish. As flattering as Jungkook's attention was and still is, in those early days, it could, at times, be a bit much. "So a little, but no more than the others."

The trick they've all had to learn is how much is too much and when he needs someone to step into his personal bubble anyway.
likedriedflowerpetals: (neg, neutral) same (in a dream that can't come true)

[personal profile] likedriedflowerpetals 2019-07-31 09:54 pm (UTC)(link)
That makes sense, Yoongi thinks, pieces slotting into place. Jungkook was never that difficult to read, but his mindset, especially then, is a different one from Yoongi's. As much as he cherishes the kindness of others, he has trouble responding and showing how thankful he is for it, afraid of being too much or making them rethink what they've done or offered. If people don't want him around, he might get annoyed, but he's not about to push in where he isn't wanted. It's such a different way of thinking. But then, maybe that's why people take to Jungkook more readily these days than they do to Yoongi.

"You're enthusiastic," he says, shrugging. "I like that. I'm just... not. But that's why I like it, I guess. The way you see the world." It makes Yoongi look at things differently, too, gives him a perspective broader than his own. Maybe, back then, that lent itself to being something of a nuisance, but Yoongi doesn't think it bothered him any more in Jungkook than the others did. They all got on his nerves sometimes. Fuck, he loves them, but they still do. He's too fucking sensitive sometimes, his nerves too raw for company. "And in all fairness, I find the others to be much sometimes, too."
likedriedflowerpetals: (neutral) mrrp? (they make me run again)

[personal profile] likedriedflowerpetals 2019-08-01 09:40 pm (UTC)(link)
"I like listening to you talk," Yoongi says, a note of protest in his tone, and takes a moment to consider the question. It's probably obvious who he finds to be the most exhausting, no matter how much he loves all of his brothers, but it's still something else to say it aloud. At least he knows he can trust Jungkook not to share the information, no matter how close they are, but it's still a little awkward.

Still, he's not going to refuse a direct question or lie. "All of you," he says wryly. "But probably Tae." He just has so much energy and so little focus. His mind goes a million miles a minute and Yoongi can never quite follow, and it's tiring and sometimes infuriating. He's irreverent in a way Yoongi doesn't entirely mind, except when it's directed at the things and people Yoongi loves. And yet, however much Taehyung has tired him or pissed him off, he wouldn't trade him for anyone.

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